I'd like to start off by saying none of this is a cry for attention whatsoever. It's just something I need to get off my chest to anyone who's willing to read.
Anyway, I would say I'm in a pretty dark place right now. I don't quite know how to explain it, or if I even can. I feel sad all the time, and when I'm doing something that I enjoy, it'll keep me somewhat happy for that amount of time but it's like that darkness is always following me.
I'm always just thinking. Way too much. My thoughts are jumbled in my head and I can't seem to get rid of them. I could be the poster child for anxiety and over thinking. I find myself worrying about the most trivial things on a daily basis. I'm constantly thinking of things I can do better, or things I should be doing that I just can't bring myself to do. Like school work for example. I am so completely unmotivated right now and can't seem to focus on anything at all.
I also can't seem to get out of this vicious cycle of self-loathing. I feel like there's always this voice in my head telling me I look bad, or I'm not good enough for anything or anyone. And I'm honestly starting to believe it.
Ok, well there's a lot more that I can write about, but I'm gonna keep it at this for now.
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